My dream would be to have a cottage near a beach or the countryside all paid for and to be able to do my healing and angel work in the annex or the front room. Or at least home near people so they can come to me. I would love to have my twin boyfriend living with me. Be out of my head and have mastered everything the way my angels taught me.
I would love my head to be nice to me and esp the ego be not so evil as it has been. To be mature about stuff and be affluent and abundant.
I hear dream big and I am like well what can I have that is big? I would like my other half to be with my in the flesh and for us to stay loyal to each till I die?
For something in life to go right. To go with ascension and to feel one in love and complete again an d to believe it.
So why all the suffering? I don't get it.
Wednesday, 23 December 2015
How do you get out of a rut
How do you start to rebuild a life when my head won't even have time for an angel? after everything you have done for me. I am hearing I am in shock. Yeah dead right, don't you agree that I should be allowed love more? so how do you attract it? how do you change beliefs and feel secure enough and good enough to be at least human?
I have been so hurt that I block people out because they have hurt me. Or I feel that bad about myself that I feel I am or was going to attack the angels. I know I wouldn't but I am crying inside. I am crying for a friend to help me out of the dark and into the love again.
I have no way of sharing with anyone how I feel. I just want to be hugged, appreciated and loved. Three basic human rights that I feel frowned upon. I spoke to a counsellor over the phone and they said I had suffered emotional neglect and abuse. I was so numbed to it. If I said yeah to it, I get told of others to stop feeling like a victim and to discount it. So my family are very materialistic and old school, they are closed and in total 3d world if not surprising a 2d world. They give their love through presents. They don't do love, not the way the angels have taught me. They affect me so much. One relative is held bent on discounting every thing you say and they say "you are wrong" you are wrong" so over the time you feel like shit and you get told not to take it personally.
Another relative will not look you in the eye or acknowledge you and they won't allow you to take time to know you. She is very patronising and talks to you like she is a kid.
Third one just likes to take money from you and give it to your brother all the time. IF she ask you to clean up and you do, she returns just to tell you how much it isnot to her standards.
I know you are saying look at the good in them, but I do my best too and I wish someone would build me up. Why do I have to be good if nothing good is coming to me?
I am not even being victim.My point is this, how do you begin to love yourself if all you hear is people telling you to toughen up and igore yourangels they are just you in your head.
This hurts me so much. I want to lighten up. I smile crack jokes to my family just do nothing.
I am here to let go of stuff so sorry if this is something not of your taste.
I have been so hurt that I block people out because they have hurt me. Or I feel that bad about myself that I feel I am or was going to attack the angels. I know I wouldn't but I am crying inside. I am crying for a friend to help me out of the dark and into the love again.
I have no way of sharing with anyone how I feel. I just want to be hugged, appreciated and loved. Three basic human rights that I feel frowned upon. I spoke to a counsellor over the phone and they said I had suffered emotional neglect and abuse. I was so numbed to it. If I said yeah to it, I get told of others to stop feeling like a victim and to discount it. So my family are very materialistic and old school, they are closed and in total 3d world if not surprising a 2d world. They give their love through presents. They don't do love, not the way the angels have taught me. They affect me so much. One relative is held bent on discounting every thing you say and they say "you are wrong" you are wrong" so over the time you feel like shit and you get told not to take it personally.
Another relative will not look you in the eye or acknowledge you and they won't allow you to take time to know you. She is very patronising and talks to you like she is a kid.
Third one just likes to take money from you and give it to your brother all the time. IF she ask you to clean up and you do, she returns just to tell you how much it isnot to her standards.
I know you are saying look at the good in them, but I do my best too and I wish someone would build me up. Why do I have to be good if nothing good is coming to me?
I am not even being victim.My point is this, how do you begin to love yourself if all you hear is people telling you to toughen up and igore yourangels they are just you in your head.
This hurts me so much. I want to lighten up. I smile crack jokes to my family just do nothing.
I am here to let go of stuff so sorry if this is something not of your taste.
GRRRRRRRRRR I feel I am going mad.
I guess I am wanting to have a period of time with my Angels to be free from fear. I think I had a heart attack and I wasn't even aware of it. That or I meditated and ascended that much that I had a spiritual experience which I had to come down from at some point. I should close down more I suppose but they have helped me out so much and I am scared of living alone because of my state of my head. I never know how to dream, or visualise for some reason it just don't do it. It goes numb and it just never shuts up. Now because I pushed everyone away, I was so scared of this demon thing that was around I closed them out too. Now I am being told you are too in the head. This is like I can't help being in my head. I know what you mean but I am talking to try and get rid of the shit that was in it.
How do you trust again and open up? I gone to almost alone and I am hearing "it is your own fault for being alone" And I shout back saying no it ain't I have closed down to feel bloody safe.
But I used to be so intuitive and I can't feel an impression now. Is this because I too fearful? I sigh coz I am like I would like to be used to love and feel precious and wanted. All I get though is you are resentful, angry and hurt.
Then see I shout back then because of frustrations and tell the voices whoever is saying it to f off. I don't aim it at angels, I just don't like the voices in my head telling me negative stuff. So I react in defence.
Then it like you try to get out of your head and refocus it on something positive and then I get my mam going at me. Then my soul now keeps saying I am evil. Coz I coped the blame for my soul sister and boyfriend decision to cut me out of their life.
This goes like this, I was with my soul sister for ten years. Archangel Michael told us to write a story to help create our other half into being. I did her boyfriends character and she barely did mine. Cut the long story short. This soul sister is the one who I apparently caused her own depression. After all I feel I written something into being and I am still staying around for mine. I don't understand in my mind how a best friend can cut you out of your life and blame you for a depression. It is not bloody right. When you see so many things go wrong in your life and you end up wanting to end it. Why is it your bloody fault in the first place to have so much shit happen in your life. I want love and joy I boyfriend a home. what have I done to deserve this?
it all doesn't make sense to me.
Oh well.
How do you trust again and open up? I gone to almost alone and I am hearing "it is your own fault for being alone" And I shout back saying no it ain't I have closed down to feel bloody safe.
But I used to be so intuitive and I can't feel an impression now. Is this because I too fearful? I sigh coz I am like I would like to be used to love and feel precious and wanted. All I get though is you are resentful, angry and hurt.
Then see I shout back then because of frustrations and tell the voices whoever is saying it to f off. I don't aim it at angels, I just don't like the voices in my head telling me negative stuff. So I react in defence.
Then it like you try to get out of your head and refocus it on something positive and then I get my mam going at me. Then my soul now keeps saying I am evil. Coz I coped the blame for my soul sister and boyfriend decision to cut me out of their life.
This goes like this, I was with my soul sister for ten years. Archangel Michael told us to write a story to help create our other half into being. I did her boyfriends character and she barely did mine. Cut the long story short. This soul sister is the one who I apparently caused her own depression. After all I feel I written something into being and I am still staying around for mine. I don't understand in my mind how a best friend can cut you out of your life and blame you for a depression. It is not bloody right. When you see so many things go wrong in your life and you end up wanting to end it. Why is it your bloody fault in the first place to have so much shit happen in your life. I want love and joy I boyfriend a home. what have I done to deserve this?
it all doesn't make sense to me.
Oh well.
Spiritual ego battle or psychic attack?
I thought that I would right about the fight between the head and the heart. I have no idea what I have been through but I'm left with a lot of anger that I would have forbidden myself to even have a few years back. My head has been so evil and fearful that I am absolutely shattered from it. I don't know if that is normal to state that I have and I know the worse is behind me, so I hope I just hope that the mind will become more nicer to me.
I often hear you are killing yourself and things like that. I have no one to turn too. I feel that my mind is like out of order and I am unsure if it has even been me some times. I started with a best friend and I loved her so deep that I stupidly ignored myself like duh. Then I had to return home to the North of England and I stayed with my mother. The thing was I was open and felt safe to channel angels till I come home and now I have ended up alone, unsafe and blaming everyone because I beat my self up to a pulp so others did not feel like doing it for me. I have felt ignored and unloved and my head has not helped me by attracting the worse things to me. I know every one else forgives but I am having a hard time to do that to me. Coz things are not yet resolved enough for me to let it completely go.
I have been doing the Angel thing and I love them I really do, but being back home has murdered me. I am not allowed to even say how I feel because you have to gain responsibility for yourself innit.
So if I blame me then no one can say that I didn't cop any blame.
I feel so stupid and I feel like my family have stopped me from fully feeling psychically safe. I was safe until they started saying you should not be listening to them in your head. Who you are muttering too or it is not right for you to interact with Angels.
My mind has just heard enough of other people's criticism of me for xyz that it just thought right you must be a dark one then. This hurts my heart so much because I had a severe break down two years ago and I have had to rely on divine help and they have blessed me with so much that my mind cannot apprehend the things I have seen.
It is all gobbly gook this is because so much as happened to me, I am trying to suss out how to heal my mind.
I had a mind which was out of hand it just went the worse evil way possible and I could not change it. Then the worse happened and I started texting through the head to my apparent best friend and soul sister? I even doubt that she is but I feel she is. I told my mother that I thought my mind wasn't being normal and I backed off. Then I heard that she wanted to take a break from me and that was it, nothing more than that but I did get a birthday card. I know she is suffering the same but it 's okay for her to have every one rally around her and then for me to be in isolation with no support. My head keeps disbeliefing and I am now scared still of falling away. It's a church term but this is just mind boggling. It has left me with so much anger and hurt. I never knew how I could be this way.
So I don't know. I keep hearing "I am a demon " and the ego is now picking up on it and it is damaging my soul. That is why and I am scared still and I don't know who to turn to, what to belief and its making me close down. I know they can't come too close.
But when the friendships all broke down. There was one friend and I saw a huge dark entity by her side in my mind. She was not even aware of it, but the fear I felt the most horrid I ever felt. I felt the separation of my twin who is like a sister to me. She is still not talking to me and I am left reeling and feeling like shit.
It is okay for her to feel the way she is but I know I was struggling in my mind. I can't feel good about myself because of what I feel I have done. They are blaming me for her own depression. It stupid that I am blaming myself for this because of my head. I feel unworthy of love and I feel like I am going to lose my ascension.
I don't want to be negative and fearful in my head. But I have never had any one believe in me, love me and say any thing nice and that is why I feel my head is so bad.
I am always discounted by my family. I feel my self esteem is non existence and I am tired of fighting my ego and head.
It is all over the place this. I just want to feel I am happy, warm, loving person again. My head before was like why are you thinking so evil of me. I heard it say because of how much you are suffering I dont' want the angels to be near you. I was like holy shit.
The thing is ever since I started this ascension stuff, I feel I have gone to hell and back and I feel I have been misguided and left with no trust.
What do you think I have no idea.
I often hear you are killing yourself and things like that. I have no one to turn too. I feel that my mind is like out of order and I am unsure if it has even been me some times. I started with a best friend and I loved her so deep that I stupidly ignored myself like duh. Then I had to return home to the North of England and I stayed with my mother. The thing was I was open and felt safe to channel angels till I come home and now I have ended up alone, unsafe and blaming everyone because I beat my self up to a pulp so others did not feel like doing it for me. I have felt ignored and unloved and my head has not helped me by attracting the worse things to me. I know every one else forgives but I am having a hard time to do that to me. Coz things are not yet resolved enough for me to let it completely go.
I have been doing the Angel thing and I love them I really do, but being back home has murdered me. I am not allowed to even say how I feel because you have to gain responsibility for yourself innit.
So if I blame me then no one can say that I didn't cop any blame.
I feel so stupid and I feel like my family have stopped me from fully feeling psychically safe. I was safe until they started saying you should not be listening to them in your head. Who you are muttering too or it is not right for you to interact with Angels.
My mind has just heard enough of other people's criticism of me for xyz that it just thought right you must be a dark one then. This hurts my heart so much because I had a severe break down two years ago and I have had to rely on divine help and they have blessed me with so much that my mind cannot apprehend the things I have seen.
It is all gobbly gook this is because so much as happened to me, I am trying to suss out how to heal my mind.
I had a mind which was out of hand it just went the worse evil way possible and I could not change it. Then the worse happened and I started texting through the head to my apparent best friend and soul sister? I even doubt that she is but I feel she is. I told my mother that I thought my mind wasn't being normal and I backed off. Then I heard that she wanted to take a break from me and that was it, nothing more than that but I did get a birthday card. I know she is suffering the same but it 's okay for her to have every one rally around her and then for me to be in isolation with no support. My head keeps disbeliefing and I am now scared still of falling away. It's a church term but this is just mind boggling. It has left me with so much anger and hurt. I never knew how I could be this way.
So I don't know. I keep hearing "I am a demon " and the ego is now picking up on it and it is damaging my soul. That is why and I am scared still and I don't know who to turn to, what to belief and its making me close down. I know they can't come too close.
But when the friendships all broke down. There was one friend and I saw a huge dark entity by her side in my mind. She was not even aware of it, but the fear I felt the most horrid I ever felt. I felt the separation of my twin who is like a sister to me. She is still not talking to me and I am left reeling and feeling like shit.
It is okay for her to feel the way she is but I know I was struggling in my mind. I can't feel good about myself because of what I feel I have done. They are blaming me for her own depression. It stupid that I am blaming myself for this because of my head. I feel unworthy of love and I feel like I am going to lose my ascension.
I don't want to be negative and fearful in my head. But I have never had any one believe in me, love me and say any thing nice and that is why I feel my head is so bad.
I am always discounted by my family. I feel my self esteem is non existence and I am tired of fighting my ego and head.
It is all over the place this. I just want to feel I am happy, warm, loving person again. My head before was like why are you thinking so evil of me. I heard it say because of how much you are suffering I dont' want the angels to be near you. I was like holy shit.
The thing is ever since I started this ascension stuff, I feel I have gone to hell and back and I feel I have been misguided and left with no trust.
What do you think I have no idea.
Tuesday, 1 December 2015
Learning to be me
I am a person who has come through a lot of fear and negativity.
There it stands that my recent belief is that your life is down to decisions and beliefs. Without love it does nothing for you. If you implement love into your life more, then things move forward. Your mind allows you to create but what happens if your mind does not work properly because you have been recovering from depression or something horrid?
I am up one minute and down the next as I fight this thing called fear out of my head. The one thing I am struggling with is to get out of the head.
I am in a job which is all in the head and so when I finish the job, I am stunned because I am left feeling like well how do I hear my heart?
You can probably sense the all over the place when I write. That is why I said it is informal not something to check me on my drama or pick me for something I have said. It is exploratory.
I really want to tell you how I am on the inside but equally I am trying to say how I feel and write with love, expression and positivity.
I am keen to write a book but I would never know how to start writing a book.
How do I feel you ask?
Well I have felt stripped and cut off. I feel I have low self worth and I am need of some good loving, appreciated and that comes from starting off with me. My mind is telling me that if I do that, you will all feel I am up it and not genuine. Like I feel I am loyal, honest, down to earth, a forgiver. The other side of me seems that I am eccentric, someone who overwhelms people with my deepest thoughts and worries. On the other hand, I find myself highly intelligent and sensitive.
I feel like I know the universe secrets and they stay in the safest places of my heart.
If I said how I was being negative, I feel that no one would like to hear the stuff because it may be boring, or stupid or a waste of time. Angels and the law of attraction always tell me that fear attracts fear and so I have lately been too fearful. Well in my mind again.
your mind or well the ego is like a record player. What the outside world feeds you, it goes around in your head and its what society tells you which stops you from truly being. That is listening to the ego is toxic especially when you have been bullied or emotionally abused like myself.
Yes, I am unsure if I had but every time I was at counselling for my depression. The same subject came up. So you were emotionally abused. HUH!!! was I?
The emotions are all over the place. The angels teach me to always say yes yes yes to all the love in the world to come into me and my life. Yet, my family have always gone against me and said No no no. So you listen to your family and forfeit the truth. Now listening to too much negativity paves way to death. If you believe in feeling sorry for yourself and your suffering. If you don't allow the love to come into you. That makes you become further ill.
What? yeah well to me it did. I almost was too scared of love to allow in because my family does not believe in hugs, loving and appreciating each other. There hearts are closed. I mean they love through material possessions and food. The love I love is the fun, the warm hearts, the open minds, the hugs and the "that's nice" expressions. These are what the Angels have taught me, or so I thought. So I am puzzled by society and my family when they try to shut down these qualities.
I don't know what you are thinking about so far. I laugh I think of my god what am I doing.
I think in a nutshell. I am trying to be understood and for someone to share yes I know what you are feeling.
It is weird the Angels tell me I am suffering.. it goes in one ear and out of the other. I look around and think to myself "who me" like I am not meant to feel or have any one care for me.
I love my angels and wish to be more fear free from them.
There it stands that my recent belief is that your life is down to decisions and beliefs. Without love it does nothing for you. If you implement love into your life more, then things move forward. Your mind allows you to create but what happens if your mind does not work properly because you have been recovering from depression or something horrid?
I am up one minute and down the next as I fight this thing called fear out of my head. The one thing I am struggling with is to get out of the head.
I am in a job which is all in the head and so when I finish the job, I am stunned because I am left feeling like well how do I hear my heart?
You can probably sense the all over the place when I write. That is why I said it is informal not something to check me on my drama or pick me for something I have said. It is exploratory.
I really want to tell you how I am on the inside but equally I am trying to say how I feel and write with love, expression and positivity.
I am keen to write a book but I would never know how to start writing a book.
How do I feel you ask?
Well I have felt stripped and cut off. I feel I have low self worth and I am need of some good loving, appreciated and that comes from starting off with me. My mind is telling me that if I do that, you will all feel I am up it and not genuine. Like I feel I am loyal, honest, down to earth, a forgiver. The other side of me seems that I am eccentric, someone who overwhelms people with my deepest thoughts and worries. On the other hand, I find myself highly intelligent and sensitive.
I feel like I know the universe secrets and they stay in the safest places of my heart.
If I said how I was being negative, I feel that no one would like to hear the stuff because it may be boring, or stupid or a waste of time. Angels and the law of attraction always tell me that fear attracts fear and so I have lately been too fearful. Well in my mind again.
your mind or well the ego is like a record player. What the outside world feeds you, it goes around in your head and its what society tells you which stops you from truly being. That is listening to the ego is toxic especially when you have been bullied or emotionally abused like myself.
Yes, I am unsure if I had but every time I was at counselling for my depression. The same subject came up. So you were emotionally abused. HUH!!! was I?
The emotions are all over the place. The angels teach me to always say yes yes yes to all the love in the world to come into me and my life. Yet, my family have always gone against me and said No no no. So you listen to your family and forfeit the truth. Now listening to too much negativity paves way to death. If you believe in feeling sorry for yourself and your suffering. If you don't allow the love to come into you. That makes you become further ill.
What? yeah well to me it did. I almost was too scared of love to allow in because my family does not believe in hugs, loving and appreciating each other. There hearts are closed. I mean they love through material possessions and food. The love I love is the fun, the warm hearts, the open minds, the hugs and the "that's nice" expressions. These are what the Angels have taught me, or so I thought. So I am puzzled by society and my family when they try to shut down these qualities.
I don't know what you are thinking about so far. I laugh I think of my god what am I doing.
I think in a nutshell. I am trying to be understood and for someone to share yes I know what you are feeling.
It is weird the Angels tell me I am suffering.. it goes in one ear and out of the other. I look around and think to myself "who me" like I am not meant to feel or have any one care for me.
I love my angels and wish to be more fear free from them.
Love and Angels do exist. Here is why
Angel Weapons.
Unleash the Love for it is powerful. I have been through some tough emotional and really dark minds of late. The one thing that blows me away is how energy of love can penetrate you and change you into some thing of love.
Love is what it is all about and my mind is blown away by how the energy of love divine can change you in the twinkling of an eye. Most people think I am mad, you probably think that I am mad. So leave the judgements behind and read this.
Sit back and laugh if you will. I am an angel an earth angel like most people would like to think they are divine. I was exhalted every time I loved and became more pure through healing.
Three years ago something happened to me that made me really ill. I am really sensitive but I can't even express in words because it was internalised. All I know is that I was cradled by love eternal an energy which I felt around me and inside of me. It penetrated my inner most being. I was so scared at first but the I got used to it. I saw and felt the energy as the angels told me who I was.
There is only love in this universe only love exists here and it is the mind that tries to trick you into believing something different. Your heart and every heart on this planet is love, it's that heart that keeps driving you to want to love and give to the world more love.
A few years back I think I suffered a mild heart attack through stress and severe depression. No one understood me except my angels. They were there for me even when I turned on them. I could not understand or appreciate what was happening to me. If I had explained it to a doctor then they would have put me in an asylum or something.
Anyway. My angels (phew) they worked really hard for me, they exist and yes I have discounted, undervalued and ignored them and when I opened my eyes, they were still there. They don't go anywhere. What I love about this is when all else fails.
Love will never ever fail you. Love is there to help you, support you, shelter you and yearn to be with you all the more.
Love wants a relationship with you but its not the way you would imagine. Love is an energy so subtle and yet so sweet that it feels and experiences your life through your heart.
Love is all knowing because everything comes from love. Love is the creator, the love is not a label and so it shall not judge you. Everyone goes to heaven but only those who love. Fear does not come from love so there fore. Love is where you go home too. Your heart and soul goes home to heaven to teach your creator and tell them what your experiences were like.
This is deep I know, I hear what you are thinking all ready, but what is true is this. That if you say
to your Angels. Please come into my life and show me you exist. They will. They will show you how to love yourself, your life, your friends and family. They are your family.
Angels do exist and this is why I say they do.
The countless miracles which they have done such as protection, healing, friendship, changing energy back into love again also known as transmutation. You can do it at certain levels of belief. Anything is possible because love makes it happen.
When I was ill with depression, my mind was really damp, totally wet and I was floored I could not even express how bad I was. I saw my angels.. in fact I had finished from a job as an activity worker at the time. I had enough and Archangel Michael carried spiritually home and I just flopped on the bed at home like a Drip.
Wet soaking and deep depression.
I have no words to describe what it felt like but the fear and the rage came from out of nowhere. The angels healed me back, the angels were respectful, the angels were loving, kind and generous without fault. The angels nursed me back to health.
Love as I saw it was surrounding me and replenishing me from the inside out. I could feel it. So I know it was there.
What I find is that society will reduce the experiences of most people into a very lucid and watered down version as to not "fear" people. Nowadays they call it spiritual emergency.
For me I know my angels and they have seen me through really difficult times.
Love is from the heart and the soul. Angels can only intervene in your life because of the law of free will and that most people often scoff at the idea because society teaches us to just see with what we physically see.
If you search for proof that Love exists, listen to your heart. Go out in nature and ask your Angels for a sign. Combine the two and you get this. Your heart just wants to love you. Your heart is like an innocent and pure being which gets hurt when you let your head rule. Your heart is the inner child that most therapy teachers mention.
Your Angels are powerful and they are also gentle, pure and innocent. It takes a pure heart to see through the chaos of the world to love and see an angel.
Angels do exist and they are there to love and protect you as a child of love.
Souls and heart exist as one and they are protected.
Angels work with you day and night and to allow you to learn lessons and to move though the world without fear.
Your heart can never fear it is from your ego and this is what I am hear to teach.
I am hear to show you that the world is not as you know it. We need more love on the planet and love exists within you, but it is how you express yourself to the world. Do you fear or do you embrace change. Do you love each other, become more graceful, forgiving, merciful? There are powerful people on the planet, but the most powerful persons are not the fearful and controlling leaders on the planet. They are the people who serve love. Be kind, be generous be forgiving and allow more love to flow to all others. This is the messages from heaven. Love is not to be frowned on in ignorance. It is a powerful substance and energy which cannot be mocked.
Love is not just romantic it is anything that is not fear based or negative.
Love healed me and so it can heal you.
Unleash the Love for it is powerful. I have been through some tough emotional and really dark minds of late. The one thing that blows me away is how energy of love can penetrate you and change you into some thing of love.
Love is what it is all about and my mind is blown away by how the energy of love divine can change you in the twinkling of an eye. Most people think I am mad, you probably think that I am mad. So leave the judgements behind and read this.
Sit back and laugh if you will. I am an angel an earth angel like most people would like to think they are divine. I was exhalted every time I loved and became more pure through healing.
Three years ago something happened to me that made me really ill. I am really sensitive but I can't even express in words because it was internalised. All I know is that I was cradled by love eternal an energy which I felt around me and inside of me. It penetrated my inner most being. I was so scared at first but the I got used to it. I saw and felt the energy as the angels told me who I was.
There is only love in this universe only love exists here and it is the mind that tries to trick you into believing something different. Your heart and every heart on this planet is love, it's that heart that keeps driving you to want to love and give to the world more love.
A few years back I think I suffered a mild heart attack through stress and severe depression. No one understood me except my angels. They were there for me even when I turned on them. I could not understand or appreciate what was happening to me. If I had explained it to a doctor then they would have put me in an asylum or something.
Anyway. My angels (phew) they worked really hard for me, they exist and yes I have discounted, undervalued and ignored them and when I opened my eyes, they were still there. They don't go anywhere. What I love about this is when all else fails.
Love will never ever fail you. Love is there to help you, support you, shelter you and yearn to be with you all the more.
Love wants a relationship with you but its not the way you would imagine. Love is an energy so subtle and yet so sweet that it feels and experiences your life through your heart.
Love is all knowing because everything comes from love. Love is the creator, the love is not a label and so it shall not judge you. Everyone goes to heaven but only those who love. Fear does not come from love so there fore. Love is where you go home too. Your heart and soul goes home to heaven to teach your creator and tell them what your experiences were like.
This is deep I know, I hear what you are thinking all ready, but what is true is this. That if you say
to your Angels. Please come into my life and show me you exist. They will. They will show you how to love yourself, your life, your friends and family. They are your family.
Angels do exist and this is why I say they do.
The countless miracles which they have done such as protection, healing, friendship, changing energy back into love again also known as transmutation. You can do it at certain levels of belief. Anything is possible because love makes it happen.
When I was ill with depression, my mind was really damp, totally wet and I was floored I could not even express how bad I was. I saw my angels.. in fact I had finished from a job as an activity worker at the time. I had enough and Archangel Michael carried spiritually home and I just flopped on the bed at home like a Drip.
Wet soaking and deep depression.
I have no words to describe what it felt like but the fear and the rage came from out of nowhere. The angels healed me back, the angels were respectful, the angels were loving, kind and generous without fault. The angels nursed me back to health.
Love as I saw it was surrounding me and replenishing me from the inside out. I could feel it. So I know it was there.
What I find is that society will reduce the experiences of most people into a very lucid and watered down version as to not "fear" people. Nowadays they call it spiritual emergency.
For me I know my angels and they have seen me through really difficult times.
Love is from the heart and the soul. Angels can only intervene in your life because of the law of free will and that most people often scoff at the idea because society teaches us to just see with what we physically see.
If you search for proof that Love exists, listen to your heart. Go out in nature and ask your Angels for a sign. Combine the two and you get this. Your heart just wants to love you. Your heart is like an innocent and pure being which gets hurt when you let your head rule. Your heart is the inner child that most therapy teachers mention.
Your Angels are powerful and they are also gentle, pure and innocent. It takes a pure heart to see through the chaos of the world to love and see an angel.
Angels do exist and they are there to love and protect you as a child of love.
Souls and heart exist as one and they are protected.
Angels work with you day and night and to allow you to learn lessons and to move though the world without fear.
Your heart can never fear it is from your ego and this is what I am hear to teach.
I am hear to show you that the world is not as you know it. We need more love on the planet and love exists within you, but it is how you express yourself to the world. Do you fear or do you embrace change. Do you love each other, become more graceful, forgiving, merciful? There are powerful people on the planet, but the most powerful persons are not the fearful and controlling leaders on the planet. They are the people who serve love. Be kind, be generous be forgiving and allow more love to flow to all others. This is the messages from heaven. Love is not to be frowned on in ignorance. It is a powerful substance and energy which cannot be mocked.
Love is not just romantic it is anything that is not fear based or negative.
Love healed me and so it can heal you.
Wednesday, 18 November 2015
Let us start from the begining.
I first began to be aware of Angels when I was around ten years of age but possible I could have been younger. One of my earliest memories was falling asleep and hearing a high pitch singing in my ears and I could always understand it was something different that I could hear and listen too but I often ignored as something medical. My Angels and yours have always been around whether you are aware of it or not. I have always felt not part of this world and very different to a lot of people. From feeling like a scapegoat to feeling isolated and not feeling like I have a family here. The one thing that I do know is that they exist and whether I defy my heart or listen to my head. They Angels do one thing that not may others have a way of being. That is to be unconditional and ignore the fear and listen to the good and the loving within you.
When I was young, I did not see any Angels but I was open and psychic, I saw dark lights such as shadows and demons and I saw many dead people that really freaked me out.
So my story line of my life began being a sensitive person with lots of people misunderstandings , bullying ways and gifts that I didn't even handle in a right way. As a child, I had a religious up bringing which was from an Irish Catholic background. The ways of Mary and Jesus who are real and they are the gentle, loving and respectful to me and even know as I write. My head discounts their true self. I have had to fight the ego because as I grow up and my living environment affects my beliefs. I have to work through it.
So as a child, I would go through the notion of going to church on Sundays, I would have to go to Holy Communion and learn the religious rituals that the church placed upon you and they made you learn the rite of fearing God not being loved by a loving God who does protect, nurture and love.
The Catholic Church growing up was fun as a child. The child in me would laugh at the sternest of the congregation. I saw through the control mechanism of the church. As a child, my enquiring mind questioned things such as If Jesus is the head of the body, then why is the Pope classed as the leader of the church when Jesus should be? or I would ask if "Jesus told people that we only have one father and he is in heaven. Why do we have to call the priest a "Father" he ain't my father.
Angels were never really taught, they were seen as emblems or "arww that is an angel" or the main story within Catholicism is how Archangel Gabriel blew his trumpet and told Mary that she was going to go dating Joseph and have baby Jesus.
So this was my innocent mind growing up. That is my early steps into what I know now and how Angels are here really to tell people you are allowed to live a free and loving life. Bless them sometimes its so difficult in the society that we live in to allow more love to be in our lives and to really open up your mind in a safe way to our loving dimensions that indeed exist.
When I was young, I did not see any Angels but I was open and psychic, I saw dark lights such as shadows and demons and I saw many dead people that really freaked me out.
So my story line of my life began being a sensitive person with lots of people misunderstandings , bullying ways and gifts that I didn't even handle in a right way. As a child, I had a religious up bringing which was from an Irish Catholic background. The ways of Mary and Jesus who are real and they are the gentle, loving and respectful to me and even know as I write. My head discounts their true self. I have had to fight the ego because as I grow up and my living environment affects my beliefs. I have to work through it.
So as a child, I would go through the notion of going to church on Sundays, I would have to go to Holy Communion and learn the religious rituals that the church placed upon you and they made you learn the rite of fearing God not being loved by a loving God who does protect, nurture and love.
The Catholic Church growing up was fun as a child. The child in me would laugh at the sternest of the congregation. I saw through the control mechanism of the church. As a child, my enquiring mind questioned things such as If Jesus is the head of the body, then why is the Pope classed as the leader of the church when Jesus should be? or I would ask if "Jesus told people that we only have one father and he is in heaven. Why do we have to call the priest a "Father" he ain't my father.
Angels were never really taught, they were seen as emblems or "arww that is an angel" or the main story within Catholicism is how Archangel Gabriel blew his trumpet and told Mary that she was going to go dating Joseph and have baby Jesus.
So this was my innocent mind growing up. That is my early steps into what I know now and how Angels are here really to tell people you are allowed to live a free and loving life. Bless them sometimes its so difficult in the society that we live in to allow more love to be in our lives and to really open up your mind in a safe way to our loving dimensions that indeed exist.
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